Wednesday, 27 November 2013

A personal post





Earrings- Ashleigh Wise
Jacket & Bag- Nasty Gal
Trousers- ASOS
Shoes- Topshop

Sorry it's this top and this jacket combo again but I just can't stop wearing it! I actually took these photos a week or so ago but my life has been mental this last week. I'm actually blogging right now as a form of distraction from going crazy. I don't usually openly talk about really personal stuff on my blog but here it goes..

As some of you may know if you follow me on twitter or facebook, sadly my step dad passed away yesterday after a 2 year battle with throat cancer. He had been in a coma for the whole of my birthday but being the thoughtful person he was I'm pretty sure he held on to pass away the day after. I actually never considered the fact that the cancer would come back as he was given the all clear but we found out just over 3 weeks ago it was back for good. So it's all seems to have happened really quickly which is quite hard to get my head around. Especially as this is actually the third time in just over a year I've lost a family member to cancer. 

My mum and I are trying to carry on as normal as possible at the moment as that's what he would have wanted. My perspective on life has completely changed the last year and if anything, made me more determined to make the most of life. Right now all I want to do is sleep the pain away but I know that when time starts to heal things I'm going to do everything I can to give my family and I the most colourful, happy life and to also help kick kill cancer's ass. 

x

20 comments:

  1. I'm so sorry for your loss, and admire you for your bravery. I hope you and your family can find strength and support each other in this very difficult time. My thoughts are with you xx

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  2. My heart goes out to you and all of your family Helena, it really does. You're such a brave lady, as is your mother and I'm sending a never-ending amount of love. Everyone needs time to grieve but your understanding of this and outlook on making the most of life just shows how wonderfully strong you are. I know in these situations words are sometimes meaningless but I'm just an email or tweet away if you ever need anything.

    ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

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  3. Omg i'm so sorry to hear that i don't even know what to say but just stay strong and at least now you know he'll be resting, Yes cancers ass does well and truly need to be killed! Thank you for even sharing something so personal with us & I'll be sending up prayers for you guysxo

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  4. Sending lots of love to you <3 xxx

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  5. so sorry to hear that :( Sending lots of energy your way !!!

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  6. so sorry to hear that, stay strong and beautiful though, we will beat cancer one day x

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  7. sorry to hear about your step dad Helena, the words written here are lovely and i really admire your strength x

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  8. So sorry to hear. What a shitty year for you. xx

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  9. i am so so sorry to hear that, thoughts are with you x

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  10. so sorry to hear about your step dad Helena, cancer completely sucks. thinking of you & sending lots of hugs xoxo

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  11. ohh i'm so sorry helena :( stay strong beautiful girl <3

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  12. thinking of you and your mum <3 xxx

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  13. My prayers go out to you and your family! Stay strong <3
    xx

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  16. so sorry for your loss, I hope you and your mom are doing better. on a lighter note, I admire your sweet spirit and those lovely holographic loafers :)

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  17. amazing!

    Hayley xx
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